Thursday 9 August 2012

最需要你的时候总不在我身边

讽刺吧~再好的感情也一样~~

我们也在一起很久了~可悲跟可恨的是我们多数是分开的~~

开心是有的可不是占大多数的时间~


的确还真的蛮想你的~可是算了吧~

就连我现在病得很重~陪在我身边的永远不是你~讽刺吧~

长距离的恋爱睁得很痛苦~

昨天我病得很重~

告诉你后,你也不能怎样~

high fever: 38++
sore throat serious~~(你知道医生告诉我这些时的反应吗??)

我好希望你能在我身边照顾我~这期望好像太高了~~好累,真的好累~

来你陪我一天的时间好像对你来说都好累~可我却没说过累~

我对你来说算什么???

不敢想也无法对你发脾气~自己长大了,再辛苦也要自己撑了!!!

算了~真的算了~才发觉父母真的好伟大~我快把我妈吓死了~今天他们太忙了,虽然已经在怡

宝却被公事搞的没法见我~但他们却一直打电话给我~~明天再来见我~~真的感动!!

忍不住就掉泪了~~自己辛苦了,家人却在左右~

没了你我还有家人!!我明白你的苦衷~但我还是可以过得好好的!!别像个小孩了~~加油!!能撑过去的!!坚持吃药!!抗病魔的时间到了!!加油!!

Tuesday 10 April 2012

hi~my blog

i have long time no update my blog

hello~~blog~~

look back to my posts...many things is unhappy 1...

maybe i'm always an unhappy person...actually i know i had happy for sometimes...

i think i need to change environment to continue my life...

i hate to face all of "u"...even how good of my mood will suddenly fall from heaven to hell...

sometimes i really wanna rude to spread my unhappy in front of u all...

u all r so fake until i really no topic talk with u all...

u all too~~look me like monsters now...i really hate this kind of life...but my dad told me...already last year~just patience...after that, u wont saw them again...

but who can understand my feeling??how many diaries i wrote about this??

i really tired to talk with u all~different channel at all...i can't so fake as yrs~~

blog blog blog~really happy at least got a place can release my unhappy~~u keep my unhappiness here^^...love it~

Wednesday 15 February 2012

the frustrated things getting more n more =)

just done a stupid MI 2 exam in the early of the morning!!
only 1 word can said!!tired!!
besides, im stupid until the simple differentiation also can differentiate wrongly~

good lo~marks bye bye lo~i help other ppl but she cant help me~~
lame again~~dun care it la...pass...but the lecturer announced 1 more "good" news for us after collected the test paper~next mid-term will be more harder n tricky,good LO!! he still said normal for ppl did wrong in 1st test~but 2nd test leh??=='''

enter another class~ECONOMETRIC!!look like simple...hohohoXD...very difficult subject again~
the assignment need go to our library,only 1 of the computer of it can enter to our U database to search those journal~
how brilliant of our U,how come it can do this...u know how many ppl need use it but it only available 1 computer to access~no for rest~some more,that journal must be related to our topic...it is not easy to read through all journals~ in addition, journal is those expert ppl wrote it~u think we really can fully understand those theory n methodology things??

after all this, i think it will not really suffer for me(maybe)...but, my friend just told me 1 more thing...my MA 2 had problem sets posted to our wble~got 2 sets...damn!!that lecturer said 1 set but now 2 sets...look like we are too free to done that tasks... i think this is not the most terrible part...the most terrible part is that problem set 1 is tough that out of our thought...i asked for other ppl, no 1 can answer that question...causes:
1. we never understand what our lecturer taught in class
2. unfortunately, he is still my tutor
3. calculation part(methodology) can't understand, at least theory part can teach well~so sorry, theory part also cant get what he talking~
4. when teaching, we all pay attention but the mind only put many question marks???(dunno how the calculation come from, what theory should apply, what actual this theory is teaching)

suddenly dunno what i'm studying of~a big jump stage for me~every time enter class but dunno what happen to me...every subjects suddenly not familiar with me...can't understand at all~
90% can't understand, 9 % can catch on a bit and 1% dreaming~hope i can pass this sem~can't think too much~if not, i think i will get treatment in "tanjung rambutan" soon~

Saturday 5 November 2011

不适合~

早就知道彼此的不适合~

却硬要把彼此的距离拉近。。。

明知道迁就只是暂时的药剂~~

他永远无法代替距离。。。

你要的女人我扮不了,

我要的男人你给不了。。。

那又何必一直拖拖拖。。。

可能放手你会很痛,但你知道我现在的痛有多痛吗??

可能我们是真的不适合,只是彼此有同样的感觉而已。。。

可能说吵架时难免,那我就想要连吵架的机会都没有!!

少了我,你的世界还是一样的过~

Saturday 22 October 2011

自私的我 T.T

我太自私了!总希望事情有想象中的那么圆满。。。

总在我掌握中,可是别太高估自己。。。

每件事都应该满足就好。。。

并没有想象中那么不好吗!!笑一笑 =)

别一直有猜疑之心,评估别人,猜疑别人是一件满累人的事。。。

应该要大大方方,接受别人~~想太多最后伤的都是自己。。

多为别人想想,自己已经很幸福了。。。

别人怎样想你都不是你能控制的,别太介意。。。放开一点会比较开心哦~

许敬筠,你是能的!!加油啊!!

你应该学你老师一样,有自己的style, 在看清别人的真实本色。。。

别为了别人三言两语就酱,你是应该为了自己而活不是别人。。。

是时候放下心向前看了!!放下!!!!

Friday 9 September 2011

......

don't know why suddenly want wrote the blog~

actually today my feeling more complication...

i now there got somethings stuck inside my heart~

haiz!!! got 2 chances let me to choose...

1. just let it go
2. it cant so easy to end...continue...

but it can't to force!!it is nature~already not suitable why don't just let it go??

why need to concern on it & make yourself more suffer & the thing complicated??

maybe i really sensitive or stupid!!he already don't care u~~

why u need so care??haiz~~be friend is more easy~

u both wont have too much relationship^^

hope my true "MR.RIGHT" fast fast come^^waiting!!!!!!=)


Tuesday 16 August 2011

傻 T.T

都是我太傻。。。

总认为还有期待,总带来的是伤害。。。

很不想再酱下去。。。

一直要伪装自己,可却没一个人能的让我不伪装。。。

写下那虚假的面具!!!总是很善变。。。一下的开心;以下的伤心。。。

已经不知道自己是不是真正的开心了~

很讨厌自己,不想伤害人却害死的是自己~~

累了,倦了,还是只有自己懂~~

不了解我,即使是最亲密的人也不会懂。。。

应为那就是我。。。希望真的有人懂我。。。

知道会有人不喜欢我,我也没关系。。。

应为我只想变回最初的我!!

不是带着面具下,胆小,恐惧和善变的我~