不适合~

早就知道彼此的不适合~

却硬要把彼此的距离拉近。。。

明知道迁就只是暂时的药剂~~

他永远无法代替距离。。。

你要的女人我扮不了，

我要的男人你给不了。。。

那又何必一直拖拖拖。。。

可能放手你会很痛，但你知道我现在的痛有多痛吗？？

可能我们是真的不适合，只是彼此有同样的感觉而已。。。

可能说吵架时难免，那我就想要连吵架的机会都没有！！

少了我，你的世界还是一样的过~

自私的我 T.T

我太自私了！总希望事情有想象中的那么圆满。。。

总在我掌握中，可是别太高估自己。。。

每件事都应该满足就好。。。

并没有想象中那么不好吗！！笑一笑 =）

别一直有猜疑之心，评估别人，猜疑别人是一件满累人的事。。。

应该要大大方方，接受别人~~想太多最后伤的都是自己。。

多为别人想想，自己已经很幸福了。。。

别人怎样想你都不是你能控制的，别太介意。。。放开一点会比较开心哦~

许敬筠，你是能的！！加油啊！！

你应该学你老师一样，有自己的style, 在看清别人的真实本色。。。

别为了别人三言两语就酱，你是应该为了自己而活不是别人。。。

是时候放下心向前看了！！放下！！！！

......

don't know why suddenly want wrote the blog~

actually today my feeling more complication...

i now there got somethings stuck inside my heart~

haiz!!! got 2 chances let me to choose...

1. just let it go

2. it cant so easy to end...continue...

but it can't to force!!it is nature~already not suitable why don't just let it go??

why need to concern on it & make yourself more suffer & the thing complicated??

maybe i really sensitive or stupid!!he already don't care u~~

why u need so care??haiz~~be friend is more easy~

u both wont have too much relationship^^

hope my true "MR.RIGHT" fast fast come^^waiting!!!!!!=)

傻 T.T

都是我太傻。。。

总认为还有期待，总带来的是伤害。。。

很不想再酱下去。。。

一直要伪装自己，可却没一个人能的让我不伪装。。。

写下那虚假的面具！！！总是很善变。。。一下的开心；以下的伤心。。。

已经不知道自己是不是真正的开心了~

很讨厌自己，不想伤害人却害死的是自己~~

累了，倦了，还是只有自己懂~~

不了解我，即使是最亲密的人也不会懂。。。

应为那就是我。。。希望真的有人懂我。。。

知道会有人不喜欢我，我也没关系。。。

应为我只想变回最初的我！！

不是带着面具下，胆小，恐惧和善变的我~

stressful day again...=(

today whole day not good....!!!recently always 3 -4am only can sleep...

all come my house discuss assignment...already few weeks ago...

im totally tired n stress lo...every week also have exam...

this friday got exam...but that day also got a compaign need to do....next monday have

exam too...early morning...haiz...

some more,need pass up another assignment...

today,my tutor give back our mid-term test mark...actually not very low but i still feel sad

lo...im the lowest among the friends...i'm sad actually...but still 1 to pretend...fake smile

always...

feel very hate to myself...i feel very uncomfortable a...how to be good leh??

today...T.T...AAA!!!!

want to cry a!!!just now already class until eight something...totally tired...still need to had

dinner with them...continuous pretend...haiz....i already very tired...

not only physical...><...back hostel...line like hell...ishhh!!!finally all settle...but i tired until

want die already~

regret =(

i shouldn't tell u anything that u dislike...

i shouldn't so care to u...

i shouldn't because of u n cry alone now...
i'm regret because i shouldn't to drop any tear for u!!!!

what for i do so???

yes!!i'm idiot...did somethings that i thought u will feel warm but at the end NO!!!!
damn!!stupid people that i'm...fool people...
dun think anymore i will do so...
dun let me gain a hope and break at the last...
ishh~~i'm not really nice and friendly until can forgive whatever u give n take back...

if u understand me well, u will know my pattern as well...
if u dislike me, just away me...don't talk so much "rubbish" to me...
if u don't love me, just leave me...i no need a good reason to let u say good bye to me...

i won't keep crying alone for u....that is not me!!!
i want back my own life...
just live well for my own!!!there is no place anymore to keep u inside my heart...
that was the only fake smile leave for u~~
dun blame me do so,is u force me to do so!!
there is no another way...

心情不是很漂亮的一天 T.T

也不懂为什么？？
就是心情不美。。。
可能也是他。。。好不喜欢分离的感觉。。。
但是时间还是会走。。。没人能让它停留。。。

现在只有照片和我相看。。。感觉自己很悲哀。。。
告诉了自己！！！这是你的选择！！！
你不能有后悔的机会。。。

所以就算了。。。可是很开心我爱过就好了啊^^

朋友，

haiz~~也不知该这么说~~

最近都好烦！！我很不想面对考试。。。

考了太多。。。我很怕！！怕不是我没能力读。。。
而是太多有点繁重~~好想放假~~至少能让我透透气。。。

很开心至少还有他陪我。。。不然我不知还能撑多久~~

一个人孤身作战，就算有一堆朋友在旁边却不会帮你的。。。

这又有何用？？朋友~~haiz~~算了吧。。。
如果可以的话，我能选择的话。。。我不想和她做朋友~~
很像小孩子哦我。。O(∩_∩)O哈哈~

还有，我宿舍的internet line “好” 到我想扁他！！！

有人来弄了还是酱！！！啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！
它快把我弄疯了！！正想丢烂它！！
可是却不能~~haiz~~

算了算了~~大方点！！一些会好的！！我相信 T.T

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